"WHAT, why? Why would you wait that long?"
That's the number one response I get when I tell people when we will possibly get married.
An engagement is a promise, and thats exactly what Jeremy wanted when he proposed, a promise. A promise that one day we will get married and one day we will be husband and wife. But with that promise that I gave Jeremy, he also made a promise to me. That he could be the husband and other half he has always wanted to be. Support and love me not only emotionally, but financially. Right now in my life I am a serious financial burden, my medical bills are astronomical, my school debt is also racking up. As a future wife I can't imagine to burden Jeremy with all of that right away. I have a job and I love my job but with the medical bills and school debt, it doesn't cover much else. On top of it all, I want a wedding, a beautiful wedding. I want something that we can pay for and not burden my mother with. I cannot imagine making my mother write check after check for a wedding that I want and she can't afford.
I love Jeremy with everything in me and I want nothing more than to say I do, right now! But in this moment, we can't afford a wedding, we can't afford for me to be off my step-dads insurance right now.
We have decided that we won't set a date until its financially responsible. Until my end in school is closer and we can feel comfortable taking on everything together. (Including those medical bills)
This decision used to make me so angry, I didn't want that, I wanted a wedding, yesterday. ha! But the more I thought about the more it made sense, I can't be 25 years old, married and asking my step-dad to pay for my insurance and medical bills. Once I am married, I am on my own, I can't ask mom and "dad" for anything. I am so grateful that they let me be on their insurance for now and until I can have these current medical bills settled, then thats the way it will stay.
I want to be able to pay for my own wedding and really love every single detail of it because we paid for it, and it is ours!
So that's that. I don't care what anyone says, were gonna have one long ass engagement and I am totally ok with it!! (Long as in within the next year and a half, I can't wait forever!)